We have been married 36 years. We have weathered many storms. We both want peace. We are in a horrible place. I don’t believe in divorce. I believe in peace. We went to marriage counseling to a very immature but but adequate for her status in her career 25 year old. She sent me questionarres per e- mail frequently asking about her service and I wrote her the truth I have just written you. She dropped us the next day. My husband blamed me. The marriage deteriorated further. We did weather many storms. My Mother died 6 months ago . She was ill for 2 years. I was a very physically fit person who tore her Achilles and underwent 7 operations in 2 years. Then a severe cellulitis. I have never been the same sense. I was a very strong person. I don’t even remember her. I am depressed, anxious and have dropped all firmer friends and activities. I see a psychiatrist. I do not know how much he helps. He gets upset when I drop meds to try not to be a lump. My husband is a workaholic, hunte